sports i have played competitively

soccer
cricket
table tennis
rugby
chess
basketball

basketball teams i have played for

onslow college
victoria university
bohemians
chiswick chieftains
cavaliers

You know the sort of day I'm talking about. Grey, wet, not cold but windy. It drifts by in a mundane sort of a way and at the end of it you're left wondering what the hell you accomplished.

Such has been today.

So, damnit, I ain't gonna talk about it!

I'm gonna get all philosophical on ya.

I called this journal/website "my life : an ongoing re-interpretation" and set the whole thing off with a quote from Nietzsche. Pretentious? Moi?

But I've always liked Nietzsche and have a lot of time for his theory of eternal recurrence - which the quote is about.

The question is: suppose you were given the choice of living your life over and over and over again. Eternally. Every last moment of it, in the same order, with the same results. What would you choose? Yes or No?

What would it take to say yes?

Would I?

Would I choose to live through the time when I was 9 or so and playing barechested in front of the caravan and these older boys came strolling by and laughed at me cos I was so skinny and it screwed up how I   felt about my body for years afterward?

Would I still go through my teenage years so shy I could never ask a girl out and my tongue got tied every time I tried to speak (to quote van morrison) and I never had sex till I was 23 and I always wished I had of much earlier?

Would I again face the fork in the path where the tracks diverge and disdain the path easily travelled, and turn away from the path less travelled, and choose the path where you fuck up?

You can't go back and change what you've done. And you only get one shot at life. Which, in a funny sense, does mean it reoccurs eternally.

You can, though, re-interpret your past (in)actions. Change what they mean to you. Interpret them again, so you would live them eternally, because they have lead to what you are now.

I ain't there at the moment. Maybe I never will be. But at the moment I like this as a philosophy of life.