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I just had to get up and chase a cat with a small rat out of our bedroom.

The other morning, on the rug in our living room, there was just a small, thumb-sized, liver or kidney or something. Just lying there. At times like that, you just don't ask questions of the cat — you just quietly pick up the liver, dispose of it and carry on as though nothing had happened.

I am so tired. Each day, I can barely get through it. I wake up tired and go to bed tired. Deb's picking through my hair looking for gray. There's a reason I love her. This isn't it!


Congratulations Deb!

Monday 11 December 2000


Well, the day sort of broke in the early afternoon with a downpour of rain, and it's been raining on and off ever since. It's a little cooler, but not cold — it's still humid. There was a wonderful light just now, the clouds had broken over the far hills, and there was a washed-out blue, shimmering across the lucent grey of the water.

And the situation with the job has sort of resolved itself. The job will be done for the agreed price. There's unlikely to be a Christmas card exchange though!

Now, I forgot to mention, that on Friday Debbie had her graduation ceremony from University. She has a Masters of Communication with Distinction. Yah Debbie! It's been four long years getting there. I am so proud of her for sticking it out and finishing, and for doing so well. I took the day off work and went with Matty to watch the parade of graduates through town. We then met my parents and went to the graduation ceremony. It's actually quite moving. You see all the professors and lecturers wearing their academic, multicoloured, and completely from-the-past gowns all parade in and sit down. Then the graduands (not graduates quite yet!) file in and sit down, awaiting their call onto the stage. It's the sort of thing that sounds a bit ridiculous, and not cool, but when you're there, even as a spectator, it means a lot. You appreciate just how much hard work goes into an academic degree, and just how much it means.

We just stayed till Debbie was called, then left. It was too much to expect Matthew to stay through the whole ceremony. He vacillated between rapt attention and wandering up and down the steps beside our seats. At the start, the auditorium went dark, and there was a Maori welcome and challenge. When that finished, the lights came back on, and Matthew piped up for everyone in our section to hear, "It's morning time!"

Tomorrow night is the Christmas function for clients where I work. It's been a long time since I've been to a Christmas function of more than 3-4 people. My most memorable ones were when I was at University and worked in an ice-cream freezer each summer holidays. I was between 17 and 23 when I worked there. I would get very drunk at each of the functions. So would everyone else. I guess it was like a rite of passage or something. It was fun though. Until you had one drink too many and threw up somewhere in public. Now, I don't get really drunk except maybe once a year. I don't think I have this year yet. There's not long to go …