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So
it was Father's day on Sunday. I'm still getting used to the concept
of me being a Father rather than just a son. Debbie gave me this
wonderful drawing with stickers on that her and Matthew had made
for me. Matthew picked out the stickers especially!
As
a Father's Day gift, Deb said I could buy a CD and/or a book.
There is some confusion over whether “and” or “or”
was meant. Actually, the confusion is Deb's. I know it was “and!”
So
in my lunchtime yesterday I wandered out into town to look for
a CD and a book. And didn't come back with a damn thing. There's
all sorts of reasons for this. One is that I'm so used to feeling
guilty when I buy a CD or book — cos there're not really
necessities and there're so many other things we should buy —
that's it's hard to just buy something without feeling I need
to justify it.
Another
reason is that for books especially I'm so overwhelmed by choice
that I invariably end up not buying something. I looked in the
student bookshop yesterday, and they had a great set of design
books selling fairly cheaply. I couldn't choose which one! the
one on typography looked good, as did the one on black and white
and two colour design, as did the one on creating identity …
And that's without even looking at the wider shop.
In
the CD shop I went to the Alternative section as usual. But I'm
so out of touch with good new music that I had no idea what I
might want to buy. I always come across stuff that I think might
be all right, or that I would buy if I didn't already have the
record, but nothing really seems to jump out and demand that I
buy it. I wonder if this is me getting old, or jaded, or just
knowing that I'm probably not going to have the chance to listen
to it anyway?
I
could happily, though, spend lots of money on books and music.
For all that I might on occasion feel guilty, deep down I never
regret spending money on them. And I love the feeling of owning
them. Not in a selfish way, or a greedy way, but more that they
are a good indication of who I am. In a sense I am creating a
me through my music and my books.
So
the upshot of this entry is that I'm open to suggestions on what
to buy. Send 'em to me! You'll get full credit if I buy one of
your suggestions.
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